The Craziness That is Me...Megan

Frequently moving perfectionist often driven to Crazyville by moving, motherhood, and...myself. Lover of music, homemade things, and Oklahoma.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Maria Anna

I have a friend named Trish.  I don't get to see her or talk with her often but I think of her almost daily.

Trish and I used to work together and I remember when I met her...she was happy all the time and had such a beautiful smile on her face in spite of any stressful situation she may be in.  She is still that way today.

I remember when her husband proposed to her.  It was right around the time that Farm Boy proposed to me.  And I remember how happy and excited she was. 

We swapped wedding info and talked and planned together.  She got married the weekend before I did and we both attended each other's weddings.  Her's was Greek, mine was Catholic.  Both were lots of fun!

I remember her saying that she and her husband Peter wanted to have children right away and I remember thinking how brave they were to just jump right in with both feet. 

I remember when she found out she was pregnant...she was ecstatic!!

And then little Maria Anna surprised everyone on July 29th, 2006 coming 7 weeks early.  She was so very, very tiny but she grew stronger and went home with Trish and Peter after just 3 weeks in the NICU.   Even from the start she was showing the world who was boss.

All was right with the world until Maria's six month check-up. 

Maria's doctor had some concerns so he did some blood work followed by a spinal tap and bone marrow test.  The test concluded her doctors fears and precious little 7 month old Maria was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia Pre B on February 23, 2007.

Tragedy, horror, and utter heartbreak.

Maria received one treatment after the other until March 3, 2008 when she rang a bell at the Jimmy Everest Center to tell the world that she was cancer free!

It was the miracle that everyone had been praying for and it brought joy and elation to Trish and Peter!

Everyone was so touched by Maria and her story that she was named the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society - Girl of the Year 2008

Right around this time I found out that I was pregnant with Q-Tip and very quickly began feeling those strong bonds between a mother and child.  It was unlike anything I had ever known.

But one month later in April of 2008 tragedy struck again...Maria's cancer was back and it came with a vengeance.   

The difference in my life at the time was that I was now a mother.  And I couldn't help but put myself in Trish's shoes.  Even though I knew that I wasn't feeling a fraction of what she felt. 

More treatment and a bone marrow transplant followed.  But Maria had fought as long as she could and on September 20, 2008 she went to be with the angels. 

I know that the heartbreak I felt for Trish can not compare to the heartbreak she felt herself.  And that my friends scared me.  Because the heartbreak that I felt was absolutely crippling.  I could not and still can not fathom the amount of pain that Trish has gone through and goes through daily.

One month and nine days later Q-Tip was born.  It was a wonderful day that resulted in my baby being in my arms. 

But Trish did not have that and I thought of her. 

And I have thought of her and Maria almost daily since then. 

I think about how happy, healthy, and pain free Maria is now.  I think about what a beautiful angel she must be.  And I often wonder if she is Q-Tip's guardian angel looking down guiding and protecting her. 

But even still...Maria's short life and Trish's grace and courage impacted me more than I can ever say. 

I never realized until I became a mother myself how your heart can be ripped from your body and yet leave you live on in spite of it.

Please pray for Trish if you get a moment...even to this day I know she can use all that she can get!

Thinking of Maria this day and always,

Maria Anna Arvanitis
July 29, 2006-September 20, 2008

P.S.  Trish had a baby boy in March of 2009.  His name is Alex and he is happy and healthy.  He's going to become a big brother in February of 2011 and Trish is going to have yet another boy to (chase) love and adore!

Mama's Losin' It

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Packing & Leaving

I'm leaving for my 5 day trip with just the girls today...Oasis in the Ozarks 2010.

And although I am completely and totally excited about this little getaway...I'm starting to feel a little twinge of anxiety.

It's nothing really.

Just a few thoughts like...

OMG...we're getting low on toothpaste what if he runs out before I get back.

OMG...Q-Tip is getting low on toothpaste I have to go get more today.

What if he needs my tweezers to get a splinter out of her hand while I'm gone...I better leave them.

How will he get it out by himself?

What if she wakes up in the night and needs me and I'm not there?

Do we have plenty of band-aids and peroxide?

Do we have plenty of children's Motrin and Benedryl?

I better stock up on everything so Farm Boy won't have to go to the grocery store while I'm gone.

I need to clean house before I leave so they won't be left in a messy house.

I have to get the laundry done so they won't run out of anything while I'm away.

What if I miss her more than I thought I would? 

I know I'll miss him more than I thought I would...I've been away from him before.

But I've never been away from her...I'm not sure what to think.

Y'all...have I mentioned that I'm going to be gone for 5 days and 5 nights? 

I'm crazy aren't I? 

Someone say no...someone...please...anyone?

But...I'm also looking forward to...

Not having a monitor in my ear all night long.

Not getting up all hours of the night to get drinks of milk.

Getting out of the same ol' same ol' routine for a few days.

Spending time with my friends!

Laughing my hiney completely off!

And relaxing, relaxing, relaxing!!

I'm going to take these next few days and rest, relax and recharge so that I can come home and be Superwoman Mom once again!

HAAA...who am I kiddin,

P.S. I seriously have no idea why I'm so worried about these stupid little things.  Farm Boy is more than capable of handling things while I'm away and I completely trust him.  He knows how to do laundry in a pinch, go to the grocery store, and buy more toothpaste if need be.  He is quite the handler of the unforeseen crisis.  He'll be fine and I know I have nothing to worry about.  But I can't help worrying that there will be no one here to take care of the two people I love the most in this world! 

P. P. S. I'm gonna miss these faces!  Ohh the anxiety!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

The Latest Q-Tip Conundrum

Before our little Q-Tip graced us with her presence lots of other parents...had her room all ready and organized. 

Part of this readiness and organization involved a diaper shown in the following picture.

I love this diaper stacker.  For many, many reasons.  I love the organization it provides, I love that it matches Q-Tip's room decor, and I love that it holds more than 10 diapers at a time.

However, we have encountered a problem with said diaper stacker. 

When we moved to our present home the 3M sticky hook thingy's that I used to hang the diaper stacker in her old room wouldn't hold on these walls.  The only thing I can figure is that the paint is different.  Instead of being flat it's kind of shiny.  This little problem caused me to have to hang the diaper stacker on the side of her crib where all has been fine with the world for that last 16 months...

Until a couple of days ago when I went in to get Q-Tip out of her bed and found this...

And this...

And this...

Which resulted in this...

Which made mama feel like this...

(insert frustrated, irritated, discombobulated...and a few more things...face here)

What's worse is I thought that maybe it was a one time thing so I put it all back and didn't think another thing about it until she did it yesterday...and today.  Which leads me to believe the days of the diaper stacker hanging on the outside of the crib are officially...over.

(insert sad face here)

I would really prefer not to put holes in the walls because we tend to move frequently and I'm trying to do the next owner of this home a favor.  However...I'm going to have to say goodbye to the diaper stacker if I don't put holes in the walls and I'm just not sure I'm ready to do that.  Not to mention the fact if I get rid of the diaper stacker where am I going to put the diapers?  It will throw off my whole system AND the organization of the changing table will have to be...CHANGED!! 

(insert freaked out face here)

THAT my friends is something that I am just NOT ready for!

(insert determined not to change things face here)

So...until I get this conundrum resolved...I'll be wearing a...

(insert what the heck am I gonna do now face). 

Currently befuddled but not for long,

UPDATE~I hung the diaper stacker on the closet door.  It's not quite as handy as it was but it will do. 

On to other conundrums!! 

Q-Tip just climbed out of her bed!!  Woe is me!!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Has the Process Begun? Say It Isn't So!!

I was shopping in the mall the other day...minding my own business. 

And after making my final decisions on the items I would purchase I went to take my place in the check-out line. 

I was standing there...looking around at the people and them BAM!!

There was a newborn baby sleeping oh so peacefully in her stroller.  She looked something like this...
And then something strange happened.  Something very, very strange.  A teeny, tiny voice inside me said...It's Time.

And then I said...

Say wha?

Are you freakin crasseee?? 

Who the heck are you in there?  Get out...get out this instant!!!!  Do you want to fight of YOU?!?!!

And then I thought...maybe...just maybe...I kinda, sorta, a teensy weensy, miniscule bit...want another baby. 

And then I slapped myself upside the head. 

And the moment passed.

And then I saw a pregnant lady.  She looked something like this...

And then I thought...Thank you LAWD Jesus I am not pregnant!!  Lawdy, lawdy, lawdy I am SOOO not ready!

But I can't help but think...has the process begun? 

Has my (Lord help me) biological clock started its devilish process of pecking away at my brain until it accomplishes what it wants?   

Say it isn't so!!!! 

I'm not ready....I'm SOOOO not ready!!! 

I'm just starting to feel sort of normal again!!!

I've got another year or two right?  RIGHT?!?!?!!!


In a crisis of epic proportions,

P.S.  Q-Tip was only a few days old in the first picture.  And I was 37 weeks pregnant in the second picture.  I'm glad I waited until I was 37 weeks to take my pregnant pictures.  They are a wonderful reminder of the "joys" of pregnancy!  I was HUGE and I was ready to have a baby instead of the stabbing nerve pain that regularly shot down my left thigh!  It was "magical" I tell you...simply "magical"! 

Thursday, September 16, 2010

An Inspiration To Me

I guess you could say that I am an easily inspired person.   

When I see someone with a good and kind heart it inspires me to work harder to be that way as well.

When I see someone working hard to achieve their goals despite their circumstances it inspires me to quit whining about my own inconveniences and do the same.

The purpose of this post was to write about one woman that has inspired me but I'm going to have to bend the rules a little and write about the WOMEN that inspire me. 

Cause that's's just the way I am.  A rule bending, multi-inspired...rule bender.

So here we go...

My Mom

She has the most merciful heart of anyone I've ever known.  I've needed that example in my life and I think I am a more balanced person for it. She is also very nurturing with children.  Without her example of a mother's heart I'm not sure of the kind of mother I would be.

My Mother-in-Law

Her dedication to her faith has made a huge impact on my life.  And her strength as a wife and mother is unbelievable.  She once said to me...God gives me so many things everyday, every week…I feel I can give him at least an hour of my week and go to church on Sunday.  There have been many a Sunday morning that I have remembered that and picked myself up and gotten ready to go to church.  I will never forget it.

I could go on and on. 

From Mother Teresa who said...Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.

To Helen Keller who said...Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn whatever state I may be in, therein to be content.

And even to a women I saw on Oprah one day.  Her name is Monica and after delivering her baby via c-section she contracted a flesh eating bacteria and had to have both arms and legs amputated.  Yet she fought to live and return home to her husband and two daughters so that she could be the best wife and mother to them that she could be.  Despite not having arms or legs.  And she did.

There are so many women whose stories, character, and overwhelming determination and love inspire me.  They inspire me to be a better person, wife, and mother daily. 

I am a work in progress but I feel that it is because of their shining examples that I am the woman I am today.

Inspired by many,

P.S.  This post is part of Mama Kat's Writer's Workshop.

Mama's Losin' It

As well as the Back to Blogging event going on at SITS.  They...with their sponsors Standards of Excellence, Westar Kitchen and Bath, and Florida Builder Appliances are giving away an Electrolux washer and dryer set...of which I am not entered to win! 

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

A Scene From The Exorcist

I feel as though I am living in a scene from The Exorcist.

My child is in a mood straight from the pits of the black abyss today.  And the only explanation I can give...her MiMi (my mom) has been here for a week and left yesterday.

Or it could be teething...but personally I think the detoxification process from the MiMi High is more than the poor little thing can bear. 

Lord knows it's more than I can bear!!!

I will spare you pictures of the crying, screaming, and gnashing of's been quite traumatic for me.  I would hate to do that to dear friends...on this fine Wednesday afternoon.

You will just have to trust me when I say...I am expecting my head to pop off and start spinning around at 100 miles an hour...any moment.  It will simply be a reaction to the site of my darling daughters head doing that very thing.

I will leave you with this picture to remember us by. 

It was taken during the good times...when tantrums didn't exist at our house.

Hopefully by tomorrow I will have re-attached both our heads and have happier things to talk about.  Until then...PRAY FOR ME PEOPLE...PRAY FOR ME!!

Missing the good ol' tantrum free days,

Thursday, September 9, 2010

My Baby the Mama

Somehow my baby has become a mama.

No...not a real mama.  

A pretend mama.

Q-Tip has always loved her baby dolls but recently
it has become a little more real.  In a pretend sort of way. 

She has started feeding them, changing their diaper, reading books to them, rocking them, kissing them, patting and consoling them, and even singing songs to them. 

As a matter of fact taking care of her baby dolls
has become one of her favorite things to do.

It's quite adorable really. 

And for some reason, it makes me feel
like maybe...just maybe...I'm doing something right. 

The Real Mama,

P.S.  The first two babies she is playing
with were mine when I was little.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

My Favorite Movie Ever...Ever, Ever, EVER

When someone asks you what your favorite movie or song is...can you just pick one? 

I don't think I could ever pick a favorite song you favorite song changes just about daily. least weekly.

However, I can say with absolute certainty what my favorite movie of all time is.  And it has been my favorite since I was 12.  So you know that I am certain when I say that I am certain.  Cause I am.  Certain.

The movie that has stolen my favorite spot for all eternity is none other than My Heroes Have Always Been Cowboys. 
It was released in 1991 and stars Scott Glenn, Kate Capshaw, Ben Johnson, Tess Harper, Gary Busey, Balthazar Getty and Mickey Rooney...just to name a few.  It was filmed in Guthrie, Oklahoma and has some rodeo scenes that were filmed at the Lazy E Arena which I have been to many times. can't buy it on DVD.  I'm wishin, hopin, n' prayin that it will be put on DVD someday and then I will snatch it up, burn it onto our external hardrive and put the original in the fireproof safe.  For safe keeping.

I even have the movie poster for it and it proudly hung in my room until I got married.  And then it was hung over my sewing table.  And it is currently leaning up against a wall with all the other pictures that we are going to hang in our office.  Someday.

Wait a minute...

Sewing table?  Lordy help me I sound like a...seamstress.  Although seamstress sounds like I make clothes and there's not so much of that going on at my sewing table. 

Okay moving on...

There are many, many reasons why I love this movie.  It's partly because it's a love story.  And it was filmed in Oklahoma.  And because Ben Johnson is in it and he is the epitome of cowboy.  And because I love the story itself and the lines and the actors and the music and everything.  And it's partly because the first time I saw it...I was 12 and he was 16 when it was filmed...I fell totally in love with Balthazar Getty.  Like, totally.

You can breathe easy...I am no longer in love with him.

But I do love this movie and could watch it at least once a week.  I have the hardest time watching it without quoting the entire thing which can be irritating to others that are in the room.  I personally can not imagine why! 

"Jolie...Jolie is that you?"

"Hell-o H.D."

I. Love. It.

I love it so much that one of my children is named after the leading female character in the movie. 

Wait a minute...I only have one child.  I guess that would be her! 

So there you have favorite movie ever.  With complete certainty.  My Heroes Have Always Been Cowboys. 

And now I must go...I have a movie to watch.

No Longer in Love with Balthazar,

P.S. Balthazar...if your reading's not that I don't love you at all.  It's just that I'm not in love with you anymore.  And it's not the little scar that is above your right eye's me really...not you.  I'm in love with someone else.  I'm sure you will be happy with your wife and get over this in due time.  It heals all wounds you know...eventually.  If anyone can pick themselves up and carry on after this it is you.  You will be fine and I promise you will live to see another day!

UPDATE~It was pointed out to me that some may not know who Balthazar Getty is and who he was in the movie.  Here is a more current picture...

He has played in Natural Born Killers, Young Guns II, Ladder 49 as well as a few others.  In My Heroes Have Always Been Cowboys he played the young son of Kate Capshaw.  Well...Balthazar...or Judd (his character name in the movie) as I like to call him...was a long haired, earring wearing punk until he discovered the cowboy within.  And then he became a short haired, cowboy hat wearing hottie as you can see from his picture in the movie poster.  He's the one on the far right.  See?  Told ya! 

Mama's Losin' It

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Go Towboys...and Other Things

There are too many things to say today so a list is in order.  After all...I love a list of any sort so here ya go. 

1. Q-Tip's top incisors are coming in as we speak...therefore she woke up crying 4 times last night.  And I'm exhausted today.

2.  I'm not convinced that my tiredness is solely due to the fact that I was up 4 times with Q-Tip last night.  I bit the "tired of irregularity and PMS" bullet last week and started birth control pills and I think they are making me more tired that normal.  Anyone else ever have that problem?

3. I took Q-Tip to Rolly Pollies this morning.  She was a maniac running around that place.  You'd think I never take the poor child anywhere.

4. It will be by the grace of God alone if I make it to bedtime today without falling over and passing out where I land.

5. I cleaned house like a mad woman yesterday.  All I have left is to clean the kitchen floor with my Hoover Floor Mate.  That thing is a miracle worker and it's a good thing it is...I need one on those floors.

6. Thank the Lord for Diet Dr. Pepper!

7. My mom, sister-in-law, and 3 yr old niece are flying in tomorrow afternoon and staying for a week.  It is going to be fun, fun, fun!  Natural History Museum, Aquarium, You-Pick Farm, the girls are going to love it!

8. It totally amazes me at how I can go to bed at 2 AM and not be nearly as tired as I am when I go to bed at midnight and get woke up every hour and a half through the night.  Is it just me or is broken sleep worse than no sleep at all?

9. The weather has been amazing here the past few days and I am LOVING it!  I feel like a new person.  A person that wants to go outside!  It's pretty great!

10. Just in case you missed it...our Oklahoma State Cowboys won their first game last Friday night.  GO COWBOYS!!  Or in Q-Tip language...Go Towboys!!

That's all folks...

Y'all come back now ya hear?

Over and out,

Friday, September 3, 2010

Significantly Significant Events - Part 1 of 3 - Oasis in the Ozarks 2010

The next few months at my house are going to be a complete whirlwind.  I'm doing my best to prepare myself and have all things ready before the whirlwind begins but's easier said than done.

I've decided to tell you about my significantly significant events in parts because after all...each one is significant in its own right.

The first event will be taking place at the end of this month and I can't think of a better way to kick off the craziness.  This particular event is very important.  As a matter of fact you might say it is vital...vital to my very existence. 

I am speaking of none other than Oasis in the Ozarks 2010 people! 

Write that may decide that having your own Oasis in the Ozarks is vital to your existence. 

So what is Oasis in the Ozarks you say...I'm glad you asked!

It's a 4 day 3 night getaway y'all.  A getaway with some of my very best friends, Pam (of My Pamtastic Life), Anna, and Ann.  A getaway without kids, without husbands...Godlovethemblesstheirhearts...and without responsibility. 

Its purpose is to revitalize and renew the spirit!  Events will be, but are not limited to the following...drink beer, shop, lounge by the pool, drink wine, cook a cowgirl dinner party, lounge in our PJ's, drink martinis, sleep in, have a Revolution with Miranda Lambert, drink Sangria, paint our toes, share hair/face product, drink any adult beverage or ten, etc, etc, etc.

Its purpose is also to remind our dear husbands and children...Godlovethemblesstheirhearts...what an asset we are.  And what better way to do it than to leave for 4 days.  Cause we're assets now dammit...assets!! 

I will be flying out of Maryland and into Oklahoma on a Wednesday afternoon.  Then on Thursday we will road trip to Missouri where my sister-in-law has a condo...Godloveherblessherheart...where we will stay until Sunday...praise Jesus.  And then on the wee hours of the blessed morning...I will fly out of Oklahoma and back to Maryland refreshed and renewed...God willing.

I've got my plane tickets booked, the condo reserved, we've had t-shirts made...thanks Anna...we've got a Pioneer Woman cookbook and we are ready to go!!

Y'all...I'm counting down the weeks, days, hours, minutes, and seconds.  It is going to be a LARGE weekend and much fun will be had by all! 

I haven't had a weekend like this since before I got pregnant with Q-Tip...seriously.  And I haven't spent a night away from her since she was born and it's time we crossed that bridge.  She will be at home with her daddy having the time of her's gonna be great for all three of us!

I'm an asset now dammit,