The Craziness That is Me...Megan

Frequently moving perfectionist often driven to Crazyville by moving, motherhood, and...myself. Lover of music, homemade things, and Oklahoma.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

A Ton of Bricks

I had a hard time making the decision to simply send out an email to our friends and family or write a blog post about our morning yesterday.  But after thinking about it and seeking advice from friends, family, and a veteran blogger I respect and admire, I have decided to share it. 

I am praying that only good will come from it.  Support from family, friends, and moms in the same situation.  As well as more prayers, and more love coming our direction.
Q-Tip had her 18 month check-up yesterday.  Yes...we are a couple months behind.  I wasn't too concerned about getting her in the day she turned 18 months old.  She looks fine, she acts fine, developmentally she is great...etc.

My main concerns were about her recent ear infections and starting swimming lessons...things of that nature.  But not really anything major.

Her weight and height are great.  Developmentally she is above and beyond her age group.  And as far as her ears go...she does have some problems with fluid but the doctor doesn't want to talk about tubes yet.  So...all in all everything is fine and dandy...except one thing.

The doctor found a heart murmur in Q-Tip's heart today.

I really don't want to overly dramatize things but I can't act like this is no big deal either.  So needless to say...yesterday morning...Farm Boy and I felt like we had been hit with a ton of bricks. 

The doctor said that it is more than likely a Ventricular Septal Defect (VSD). A VSD is a hole in the wall between the right and left ventricles of the heart.  He said if it is a small VSD it will more than likely close on it's own as she grows.  However, he wanted us to make an appointment with a pediatric cardiologist.  Her appointment is a July 21st. 

I wondered how it could be that they are just now finding it.  Apparently it has a lot to do with body size, body fat percentage, and simply her age.  The younger a person is the faster the heart beats making it harder to detect other noises.  She has also had a bit of a growth spurt lately and has grown taller causing her body fat percentage to go down.

Her pediatrician is not concerned and told us not to be...YEAH RIGHT.  But we are working on it.  He said she has no restrictions and can do whatever she wants to do.  And that is what we are going to do...carry on with life.

We are working hard to not dwell on the negative or worry about things we don't know.  There is no benefit to that for her or us.  So we have made the decision not to do it.  

But with that...we are praying our hiney's off that this was all a fluke thing and the cardiologist will find her little heart to be 100% normal.  And we appreciate your prayers as well. 

Much love to you all and thank you for your love, prayers, and support!


  1. I will be thinking good thoughts for you and Lil Miss Q-Tip. I hope that your doctor is more than right and that she will be a-ok fine. ((( hug )))

  2. You definitely have our prayers. I know it's a terribly scary thing to think that something could be wrong with your baby, and to NOT worry is pretty much impossible. I hate that your appointment is SO far away from now, but know that she is in our prayers and thoughts!

  3. I'm glad there is a pediatric cardiologist near you to diagnose her. Our daughter's second child was born with Tetralogy of Fallot, a combination of four heart defects, and had surgery at Children's Hospital in Boston at 6 weeks old! He is 4 years old and a very active little boy. He may need surgery again in the future but so many advances have been made in pediatric cardiology.

    May God bless you with strength to endure this fearful time. I will keep you, Q-Tip and your family in my prayers.

    Linda (GillLink)

    P. S. You don't need to publish this post.

  4. I will pray for you. News of any kind like that, never is easy.

    And all the "don't worry" advice, well, easier said than done.

    Try to not wear yourself out, though...sleep and rest and know we are praying for you.

  5. Amanda SchroederJune 23, 2010 at 6:24 PM

    Hey girly~ I know that "hit by a ton of bricks" feeling all to well. We went in with Parker last July. He was doing is asthma, respiratory, ear infection thing again...anyway, the doctor, after listening to him with the stethoscope, turned to me and asked, "So how long have you known about his heart murmur?" My breath totally left my body...I got tunnel vision...and, for a moment, the world seemed to slow almost to a complete stop. I could hear my own heart beating above my thoughts which were racing like lightning with each thud of my heart serving as thunder. When I finally came back to earth, I just looked at her and said, "I didn't..." That is how we were told. Mind you, that was in July...the closest appointment for the pediatric cardiologist in OKC was not until NOVEMBER. It was awful...but I can tell you that the tests were painless and he is going to be just fine. You know me...I research everything...if the murmur is major, it is obvious just listening to it. The pediatric thing will just diagnose what type it is and alleviate your fears. I am so sorry, but glad that it was diagnosed now...Parker was 4 before they found his:-(

  6. I'm so sorry you're going through this - it must be so tough. If it makes you feel better, I have multiple friends with small heart defects and all of them live perfectly healthy lives.

  7. We're thinking about lil Q-Tip and I just have a feeling that everything is going to be just my feelings :-)

  8. Thank you all so very much for your prayers and support. I am so very thankful for every one of you! The encouraging words and positive stories from people with the same kind of problem is more helpful than you know!!

    Blessings to you all!

  9. Best of luck with Q-tip! Poor little lady!! Hopefully things will turn out for the best!

  10. I'm 25 and just a few months ago a doctor told me that I have a slight heart murmur. I was surprised that nobody else had ever picked it up, but she said that it's really not a big deal and that a lot of people have one. Her exact words were "I like heart murmurs, they make everyone unique!" So hopefully this is just a little something that makes your daughter unique- no biggy :)

  11. I know this probably isn't going to help you feel better now, but my little sister (now10) was diagnosed with a heart murmur and it was the VSD thing. It is slowly closing up on it's own. She has no restrictions on her activities or anything. I hope that this is the case with your darling Q-tip. They told me I had a murmur as a kid, but when we went to the specialist they couldn't find one. Our thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. Have a blessed day!